....makes you stronger.
Okay school. I'm done with you. Summer, I'm kind of ready for you. School that's starting in 3 months.......you worry me.
That's my brain right now. But bitter/sweet about school ending. I'm really glad to have summer and no homework, but I'm sad to be letting go of my 8th grade year of homeschooling and friends I've made in different classes. Because starting now, I probably won't see them again! :(
Summer seems like I should be excited about it, but I can't stop thinking of all the things I need to do. All the this' and that's of ending school and worrying about starting school and sports.
I continue to tell myself that I need to let go. But I've been holding on so long that I feel like I've forgotten how to let go.
I have a new life ahead of me. Wait, no I don't. That was the nervous part of my brain speaking. It is the same life. The same friends. The same people. the same songs running through my head. The same world spinning around me. but new experiences and new challenges.
I'm not going to say "I'm ready for them" or "I can do this". But I will say "bring it on" because I know that it will come. everything will come. But I am going to choose to not just float aimlessly down this river. Sure, the waves are crashing. Sure, that log is being tossed and turned right by my head. I feel like it will hit me sometime. Sometimes, I feel like it already has hit me. But I have the choice to stand up. Wading in water is hard, but the energy of my heart can give me enough strength to keep going. And at the hard parts, the rapids, the hurts, that will be when God picks me up and carries me himself.
So here we go. summer is starting and I'm facing everyday piecing back my brokenness with God's help. I'm going to stand for this summer. Everyday I'm going to wake up. Everyday I'm going to stand up and keep walking. I've forgotten how much of a privilege that really is. To be able to stand up and trust someone with your whole entire life.
Not necessarily saying that I'm ready for it.....but God is....and he's in me, so I think I'll be okay. I think this life will be an adventure. No matter how many hurts. No matter how many laughs. No matter what. I think it'll be okay. And I think I'll choose joy.
I'm going to burst right now. I'm full of life that I haven't felt in a long time. Because God loves me. I am living because I feel alive.
I love this song. It's called "Straight for your heart" by Britt Nicole!
Okay school. I'm done with you. Summer, I'm kind of ready for you. School that's starting in 3 months.......you worry me.
That's my brain right now. But bitter/sweet about school ending. I'm really glad to have summer and no homework, but I'm sad to be letting go of my 8th grade year of homeschooling and friends I've made in different classes. Because starting now, I probably won't see them again! :(
Summer seems like I should be excited about it, but I can't stop thinking of all the things I need to do. All the this' and that's of ending school and worrying about starting school and sports.
I continue to tell myself that I need to let go. But I've been holding on so long that I feel like I've forgotten how to let go.
I have a new life ahead of me. Wait, no I don't. That was the nervous part of my brain speaking. It is the same life. The same friends. The same people. the same songs running through my head. The same world spinning around me. but new experiences and new challenges.
I'm not going to say "I'm ready for them" or "I can do this". But I will say "bring it on" because I know that it will come. everything will come. But I am going to choose to not just float aimlessly down this river. Sure, the waves are crashing. Sure, that log is being tossed and turned right by my head. I feel like it will hit me sometime. Sometimes, I feel like it already has hit me. But I have the choice to stand up. Wading in water is hard, but the energy of my heart can give me enough strength to keep going. And at the hard parts, the rapids, the hurts, that will be when God picks me up and carries me himself.
So here we go. summer is starting and I'm facing everyday piecing back my brokenness with God's help. I'm going to stand for this summer. Everyday I'm going to wake up. Everyday I'm going to stand up and keep walking. I've forgotten how much of a privilege that really is. To be able to stand up and trust someone with your whole entire life.
Not necessarily saying that I'm ready for it.....but God is....and he's in me, so I think I'll be okay. I think this life will be an adventure. No matter how many hurts. No matter how many laughs. No matter what. I think it'll be okay. And I think I'll choose joy.
I'm going to burst right now. I'm full of life that I haven't felt in a long time. Because God loves me. I am living because I feel alive.
I love this song. It's called "Straight for your heart" by Britt Nicole!
You don’t have to walk this road alone
I’ll hold you, hold you
You don’t have to live this life alone
I know you, know you
Hidden in the tunnel
I’ll be there
Even when you can’t fly
I’ll be there
I’m coming straight for your heart.
I’ll hold you, hold you
You don’t have to live this life alone
I know you, know you
Hidden in the tunnel
I’ll be there
Even when you can’t fly
I’ll be there
I’m coming straight for your heart.
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