Update on my life:
I am feeling good and ready to face everyday. Every morning I wake up and ask God to pass a little patience my way. I guess God's idea of "a little patience" really means "I'll give you enough patience as you need, but you need to be the one to make the choice to use it. To put it on."
Schooling decisions for next year seem to all be blurring together. After much consideration and prayer about Sehome, ZLO, or doing what I did this year, I feel God pushing me a little more towards Sehome.
That is not at all influenced by me. I'm scared out of my skin to go! because it's new. But I have to reach the point where I can embrace the new things. If god wants to teach me something by sending me someplace completely new I'll go. With new things come curiosity...and I like that. I'll admit, when we actually got the registration papers, it made me realize "whoa, this is real. I have to stop considering it and make my choice." I hate making choices. But just my luck, life is full of em'.
"you never know what God will put in your life. To strengthen you. Or where he will put you. To use you." those are the words I heard from my Grandma about 5 times this past week. Everytime she said them, I had to say "God, I want you to send me where you want me to go." but that's so hard.
I find a big struggle is just giving it all up. Everything that I want to plan in my life--my way. That's one of the hardest things for me.
But the nice thing is that when you know God like I do, it gets easier.
And so, life goes on. Whether I stop to take it in, or let it fly by me. I am telling myself to slow down. Take a deep breath and remember that all this: schooling, schedules, work, everything are just scenes in the big picture.
God is bigger than all that. If he is bigger than any decision I'll ever have to make, I think it's a pretty good deal if he is offering me some help.
I am feeling good and ready to face everyday. Every morning I wake up and ask God to pass a little patience my way. I guess God's idea of "a little patience" really means "I'll give you enough patience as you need, but you need to be the one to make the choice to use it. To put it on."
Schooling decisions for next year seem to all be blurring together. After much consideration and prayer about Sehome, ZLO, or doing what I did this year, I feel God pushing me a little more towards Sehome.
That is not at all influenced by me. I'm scared out of my skin to go! because it's new. But I have to reach the point where I can embrace the new things. If god wants to teach me something by sending me someplace completely new I'll go. With new things come curiosity...and I like that. I'll admit, when we actually got the registration papers, it made me realize "whoa, this is real. I have to stop considering it and make my choice." I hate making choices. But just my luck, life is full of em'.
"you never know what God will put in your life. To strengthen you. Or where he will put you. To use you." those are the words I heard from my Grandma about 5 times this past week. Everytime she said them, I had to say "God, I want you to send me where you want me to go." but that's so hard.
I find a big struggle is just giving it all up. Everything that I want to plan in my life--my way. That's one of the hardest things for me.
But the nice thing is that when you know God like I do, it gets easier.
And so, life goes on. Whether I stop to take it in, or let it fly by me. I am telling myself to slow down. Take a deep breath and remember that all this: schooling, schedules, work, everything are just scenes in the big picture.
God is bigger than all that. If he is bigger than any decision I'll ever have to make, I think it's a pretty good deal if he is offering me some help.
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