I started my day feeling really frustrated about life, the decisions, my schedule, etc. I was promptly reminded that everything in my life including my decisions and schedule, were not mine. God will make my decisions with me which will shape my schedule and my life.
I want to clarify something from my other post. When I said "God has been pushing me more towards Sehome", I really meant that that is the place I feel the strongest urge to go because I feel like he can use me more there, but we are leaving all the doors open for him. So don't think it's a done deal or that's where I'm going. We're leaving that up to God.
My math class was canceled today after we got there and my teacher threw up all over the floor! So we all called our parents and then got to talk for a long time! I'm sad that she is sick, but I'm glad to have only one page of homework! YESSSSS!!!
I have been learning to let go. So much of my life I've been trying to make God talk to me. It's easier to forget about it when you can't "feel" God and just keep going with life. So that's what I did. Until I hit a little bump where it turns out I actually can't live without God! Fancy that!
So I'm learning to let go and let God. Let him take over my life. That is hard for me mostly because I put a mask of how strong I am and not really needing help. So when I've had that mask on for a while and taking over my life, it's hard to open all the doors to him. But I'm learning.
I want to clarify something from my other post. When I said "God has been pushing me more towards Sehome", I really meant that that is the place I feel the strongest urge to go because I feel like he can use me more there, but we are leaving all the doors open for him. So don't think it's a done deal or that's where I'm going. We're leaving that up to God.
My math class was canceled today after we got there and my teacher threw up all over the floor! So we all called our parents and then got to talk for a long time! I'm sad that she is sick, but I'm glad to have only one page of homework! YESSSSS!!!
I have been learning to let go. So much of my life I've been trying to make God talk to me. It's easier to forget about it when you can't "feel" God and just keep going with life. So that's what I did. Until I hit a little bump where it turns out I actually can't live without God! Fancy that!
So I'm learning to let go and let God. Let him take over my life. That is hard for me mostly because I put a mask of how strong I am and not really needing help. So when I've had that mask on for a while and taking over my life, it's hard to open all the doors to him. But I'm learning.
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